In honor of the fact

That Napoleon Hill says you should use autosuggestion to convince yourself you already have the money that you want, I'm going to write a letter to myself from my self-actualized future self.  It might speed up the getting-rich-by-feeling-rich-already-process. 


Here's the exact quote, which probably is illegal for me to copy and put in here:
"Do not wait for a definite plan, through which you intend to exchange services or merchandise in return for the money you are visualizing, but begin at once to see yourself in possession of the money, demanding and expecting meanwhile, that your subconscious mind will hand over the plan, or plans you need.  Be on the alert for these plans, and when they appear, put them into action immediately.  When the plans appear, they will probably "flash" into your mind through the sixth sense, in the form of "inspiration".  Treat it with respect, and act upon it as soon as you receive it."
(Hill, 70)

(I'd like to make note of the fact that I just cited something without being forced to for a class.  This is an English majors equivalent to using math in the real world)

Dear Myself in the Past,

          I see you there, reading all day.  Writing until you get done with your amount of words, but not for fun.  You aren't "work", "relaxation", and "don't think"-ing the way that you're attempting to.  If that were true, you wouldn't pay attention to the word count.  You certainly wouldn't have to turn off the clock on your computer so the time wouldn't bother you, or wake up earlier and earlier each day to try to "get it out of the way".
          I have good news for you.  You're going to have that money you are seeking.  That two million dollars that you arbitrarily picked.  You could have really set your sights higher, that's not even that much.  You will probably get it by winning a sweepstakes, or maybe selling that book (hey, if Stephanie Meyer is as popular as she is, anyone has a shot).  You probably feel like Homer on that episode of the Simpsons where he has the dream in which everyone is telling him about how genius his new invention is but they won't let him see it.  They think it's silly he wants to see it.
         Here's the other good news.  Me, now, in the future, has more confidence than you ever had.  Self-actualized just means "has money", by the way.  They'll try to tell you otherwise, but listen to me, because I'm you.  You'd probably believe anything I told you, wouldn't you?  Bet it all on red.  That girl you want to ask out, she's going to say yes.  Just do it. 
          As I'm sitting here at my private resort, dictating this into my state of the art computerized phone, I picked up drinking again.  All work and no play makes you boring, but it turned you into me, and that's great for both of us.  It might be torture, but it's going to be good in the end. 
          Let's see, what else do you need to know.  The Dog Who Fought the Dragon isn't going to be the hit you expected it to be.  Let's just skip that in your personal learning process.  Fourty-five out of fifty-two short stories will be a failure in your first year.  You're going to "get" characters more as you develop a purpose in your own life.  Your purpose being "writing" leaves you in as precarious a position as always, but you can (and will), build your personality around being precarious.  It is an identity.
          Oh, and, I have that money.  In spades.  It's just the product of hardwork.
           PS:  Read some Mother Teresa books.